As 2019 comes to an end the Lord impressed upon me to go back and read my journal for this year ending. It is important in our Christian growth to revisit our journey with Jesus.
There, in the secret place in prayer and the quiet He would speak. He shared His heart and I opened mine. He said “it’s like a garden, your heart. It’s been unattended and left dormant for awhile. But I have beautiful plans for your garden~
Jeremiah 29:11 Living Bible (TLB)
11 For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. courtesy of Bible Gateway
Let’s check the garden; it’s been dormant and in waiting.
I began my journey back to the Father in September 2108. At that time the Father told me to write down our conversations and I began journaling.
Over the last few weeks I have started to open them up again to revisit “my journey back”. There’s much spiritually to gain in our testimony. The Holy Spirit will continue to reveal treasures of the heart of Jesus…His words are alive!
Jesus and I started our getting to know each other again building trust enough to share. I could see how my writing changed over the days, weeks and months. In the beginning, my conversations with Jesus were polite but on the reserved, if not shy side. I think He was being a gentleman, waiting for my leading.
As I would allow myself to become more vulnerable and actually more honest, He would begin to reveal Himself more everywhere…in the Bible I would read, in everyday events and in the quiet. Bible verses would jump out at me. Excited, I would grab my colored highlighter marking these and dating them. I would turn on music and often a song would seem like a reminder from the King how much I am loved.
The plowing and replanting of my heart began immediately. The more I saw Him as a loving Father, Friend and Protecter, the easier it became to let down my guard. Yes, that weed there is pride Father, let’s pull it out. The theme for most of 2018 was “slow down and let go”…..He would say as I listened with an open and honest heart.
Plowing up an old abandoned garden brings up hidden hinderances unseen from the surface. Past broken relationships needed mended for healing and new life to even begin.
Much change found in my 2019 journals! Who I am and who He is……still working on that part of my garden but it’s showing much progress! Allowing Him to change how I see myself is still my journey but He knows this. He speaks to me daily, when I am listening, just to tell me how much He loves me. He reminds me that I’m His daughter, complete with all that comes with being the daughter of the King!
In 2019 new seeds were put in more fertile ground in my heart garden. Hope, peace, joy and faith is replacing fear, shame, depresssion and pain. Reading more recent journal entries I could really see the progression of these. I am more firmly planted in Jesus. It is evident and plain to see thatI’m learning and believing my identity as his beloved daughter. I am being invited into a more intimate relationship with Jesus, the lover of my soul.
I’m excited to be a part of His Kingdom. He is preparing His church, the Bride, to be ready for the biggest harvest of souls in history.
Many prophetic voices are heralding a new great spiritual awakening in 2020. Eyes are looking forward in anticpation of a mighty move of the Holy Spirit sweeping the earth.
I am growing stronger in the Lord and no longer see myself as an orphan. He is teaching me how to love as He loves. I want others to only see Jesus, not me. I am a work in progress but some of my seeds are sprouting!
The King is returning but not until the Bride is ready!
Revelation 22:17 Living Bible (TLB)
17 The Spirit and the bride say, ‘Come.’ Let each one who hears them say the same, ‘Come.’ Let the thirsty one come—anyone who wants to; let him come and drink the Water of Life without charge. courtesy of BibleGateway